bakit kasi kahit kelan hindi ko mabanggit banggit pangalan niya sa kahit sang social net sites. namiss ko siya!!!!! peste, anong kagaguhan to. matapos magdrama ng about sa great love with the ever dearest first pagibig, mamimiss si paasa forevs ex. wow lang ang eksena ko! =)))) :(

pero ramdam ko ito naman talaga, eto yung totoong nararamdaman. eto yung pinipintig ng puso (anodaw?!) baduy enoh? but kasi yung about kay first love, memories na kasi.. isip na yung mas pinaghuhugutan.

e bakit ba ko nageexplain?! hahahah! kainis e, bakit kasi ang deep DAW ng love ko. haha :(

oh em, feel ko eto na yung monthly pag eemo ko. (late siya infairness. teheeee) kaso feeling ko wala ko makakaramay ngayon e. :(( fourevs alone? =)))) miss ko siya promise! kbye na ulit. :D >:P<

>;(<

ugggghhhh dont know what to feel!! hehehe boboness! whats with my first love?! WTH!! you dont deserved to be loved like this, i mean.. ofcourse im not inlove with you anymore.. yet, the feelings- the care, the concern- this unexplained feelings, never siya nawala.

“Each girl has that 1 boy that they will never lose feelings for.”

siya ba yun? mehehe. ewww! lol kainis!!

i know our story has ended. we have different lives now. Ofcourse im happy with my life now, no regrets  that i am here. =) As for the good things that we had, there’s nothing to regret, i did my part. i took all the chances, just unfortunately it didnt work out! Still, im happy i was not bragged to his miserable life.hehe ^_^V

God is really good! He let His children feel the pain and be hurt but eventually He will heal it. Just for us to realize that there are better plans. Maybe now, i feel like i was left alone. That i am being neglected, but i know and believe He has already written the story of my life.

Ill keep my faith no matter what. I think this is the good thing my first love has contributed to me, (NOT JUST) but because of him also, i learned to wait for His plans, believe and keep the faith more.

*maybe i can write a letter*

To my ever dearest first love,

     I will always thank you for the pain that you had given me. It made me a better person. I learned a lot of things from you. Maybe i cant remember now even just a single happy moment with you, but atleast the pain that you had given me.. its not hurtful anymore. It became a good memory.

    I loved you most! I have always said that no one can ever replace, no one can ever equal the love that I had given to you. But Im still hoping, praying, that there will be someone, someone who can do that for me.

    You’ve never been a good man,i know! Never a good individual, even worse than the worst.. But it doesnt make you’re whole idenity because you still have the good heart. People may not understand what i am saying. People may not know who you really are. They might not understand what you really feel. But i hope, somehow, someone can do that for you. I reckon it should have been me. But fate, destiny, si Lord.. He didnt let me.

    You were forgiven, you will never be forgotten. I hope the best for you, the grace of the Lord be with you. i will always care. :)

                                  Yours Sincerely,

                                  The one you had called your True Love </3

hahaha i dont know bakit naglead tong blogpost na to sa ganito. hehe, naalala ko lang naman siya kasi accidentally natitigan ko picture niya. chaka niya ngayon, though sa paningin ko ganun pa rin. pogi pa rin teheee. eww! haha, i was supposed to look for something about the previous ex but siya yung nakita ko. peste! eksena e. hateyou!! si previous love gusto ko e, di ikaw, haha!

so makatulog na lang, emo ng emo e. miss ko na kasi si toooot! :( (di naman talaga si first love! epal forevs lng siya, HAHAHAH ewaaaan!) wfshjklxxxxxxxxxx urrrrrgggg hehehehe kbye!

ang mga babaitang ito! tsktsk ♥♥♥♥☺ (Taken with GifBoom)

hehe miss ko sila =)) (Taken with GifBoom)

u happy bro?! lol 👍👍 (Taken with GifBoom)

damn cold nite! kbye =))) ☺☺ (Taken with GifBoom)

waaaah! nakita ko si turtelita sa fb!!! haha. she’s still alive. lol! namiss ko tuloy si super friend. lapit na siya umuwi.. im jealous! >.< may pasalubong pa naman sana ko dun. haha! asa pa ata? :D

i miss those midnight chills.. tsk! tsk! keribels lang, magkikita din kami ulit one day! ;)

napaiyak ako kanina sa harap ni mother & father dear sa sobrang upset sa work! ang dami ko kasing badtrip e, mga 10000! kaya di ko na kinaya. but define sweet sila =)) super concern sina brothers kung bakit ako umiiyak. nagkkwento lang naman kasi ko sa mga nangyare sa resto, but hindi ko na napigilang umiyak. nung nasa sasakyan pa nga lang ako naiiyak na ko e, and oh! another sweet thing! sinundo ako ni father dear sa work and 30 mins siya naghintay! bongga! me work pa sya bukas nun ha, tapos nakamanipis lang syang shirt e ang lamig lamig. bait! ay, nalimutan ko magthank you pala! =| sa sobrang inis hindi ko na naalala. pinapatigil na din nila ko sa work ko kung ganun lang din daw na walang consideration mga kasama ko sa work. haaay! if thats as simple as that. -__- kung hindi ko lang naman kasi talaga kelangan ng pera e. tsk!

ang hirap ng buhay! ang sarap maging estudynte lang :X anyways, atleast kasama ko naman ang buong family. kahit na machorva ang mga kapatid ko e ayos lng! love na love ko sila lalo na si father & mother! wagas! =))

Yung matatawag kong best friend at kalaro.

Nandiyan palagi para saken.

Bibigyan ako ng bulaklak, kahit walang okasyon.

Hahawakan ang kamay ko, kahit walang tampuhan o away.

Isasayaw ako kahit walang music.

Surprise akong hahalikan sa ilong.

leshe! ang emo ko, ayoko na! hahahaha. baduy! ewwwww! :( =))))))

oh em! next time hindi na ko magmemention ng names sa blog ko, ano ba yan.. pano na lang pag nabasa nila. haha! nakakahiya.. ngayon ko lang naalala nagvisit siya sa blog ko nung nakaraan.. super post pa ko ng tungkol sa kniya. mehehe~ hindi naman niya siguro nabasa yung about sa knia, SANA! =))

e kelan kaya kita makikita? hehe. makauwi nga sa june. chos! miss you my dear superfriend! ;)

To the one who made the very first scar, the one who broke the perfectly good heart. ♥ i wish you had a blast this day! no matter what they say, no matter what other people may think.. you still made a very big part of my life now. Maybe you had hurt me. Maybe you had done things that i didnt wish to happen in my life, maybe i regret things that happened between us,but i know deep in my heart that you also made me one of the happiest girl at some point of my life. You are forgiven, but never forgotten. I will always hope for good life for you and your family. Happy birthday first love! Godbless! :)

love the mirror shots! =)) shooted this afternoon ;)) #vain #mything #iphoneography (Taken with instagram)

doin my thing ;)) #vain (Taken with instagram)

#iphoneography #igers #instaphoto (Taken with instagram)